I want myself to remember this day. Not because it is a special day or anything but because I am truly hurt and disappointment on this day. I always believe when we are kind towards others, others will remember our good deeds and treat us nice too. I am sincere when I do things and buy things to make others happy. I do just want to see them- happy.

But sometimes.. I wonder.. All those things I've done, I don't think it mean anything at all to others actually. People still treats me like shit. People here are so different from the ones I know back in my hometown.

This day, on the 31st of December, 2015 my birthday as well as the end of the year 2015, I would like to promise myself to love myself more than others and never to treat others so nice anymore. Screw the kindness because nobody will love you any more than they do because you never mean anything to them in the first place. Please remember this.

Happy new year eve to myself.
and also Happy Birthday to myself.

Cheers to another year.